Every time

When I get together with my extended family, my aunts, uncles, and cousins, I love it. And when I hear my aunt Judy talk about how she still makes Brian's favorite dinner every year on his birthday, I cry. He has been dead for 10 years now, my cousin Brian. We were close, we spent a lot of time together and we shared a lot of scary, happy, sad, and special moments. I think about him a lot, what his life might be like now if he had not killed himself. He was 2 years older than me, so he would probably be married with kids, a house with a fenced in yard and a dog. I miss him and I know his mom and dad miss him too. RIP Brian.